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Name: Lawarran
Location: Elmira, New York, United States
Gender: Male
Interests: i am interested in whatever makes me smile and i am easily entertained!
Expertise: can any one really say they are an expert at anything?
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AIM:  ltraenx
Yahoo:  ltraenx1
Member Since:
10/24/2005
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| so today me and my fiance's family got a little bigger with the entrance of jaidyn. she is genny's four year old daughter and she now lives with us. so far she is a bundle of energy that is bouncing all over the place. i can see now that she is going to be a hand full and a half. i can also see that she has a lot of habits that we are going to have to work to break her of because i am guessing she is really not used to being around a lot of people. i do worry that i am not up to the challenge or task of being a good father. i have three men in my own life that i look to as father figures and i pray that i can one day look at her as my daughter and as some one that loves me as much as she loves her mother. she is a cutie and she is incredibly loud and from what i have seen so far, she is going to worry us to know end when she gets old enough to discover boys. i have always wanted to be a parent and to pass along some of the love and teachings that my mother gave to me. i know i am not perfect but i will work my hardest to bring this young lady up in a world that is probably going to be fighting against me every step of the way. i am looking forward to getting our first family pix done some time soon. so far we are still getting used to each other and that will probably go on for some time but i am hoping that when that is done we will feel comfortable with each other. | | |
| Well today is my birthday and as i look back over last year i am thinking of all the changes that have occurred in my life. Most were bad and had some serious consequences but then there are the good and happy changes that make all the negativity seem to disappear. On the whole i enjoyed last year. I lost friends but gained new ones. I also found my lovely fiance. That by itself is totally amazing to me. As i lay here in the dark i do have to admit that i am not the same man i was last year but that is how life is supposed to be. If you are not growing you are dying and i have truly grown last year. I want to say thank you to all the people in my life both old and new, online and off, you guys are the reason my life stays interesting, thanks for putting up with me. Well Happy Birthday to me and here's hoping the growing and the fun keep on coming my way | | |
| there is not much that annoys me but one of the things that drive me crazy is stupidity! for example, i was crossing the highway about an hour ago and i was waiting for the light to change so that i could cross the highway without getting hit. i currently have to use a cane to walk because of complications with my leg so i do not walk as fast as i used to but i still manage. as i am standing a few inches off the curb this guy starts sitting on his horn for some reason. it took me a moment to realize that i was the cause of this guy horn action. he was waving me at me to walk into traffic so that he could make his right turn. i check my distance from the curb and there was no reason why this guy could not just go around me to make his turn so i ignore him and continue to wait for the light. so he continues to sit on his horn and when i look at him again he is now waving his arms wildly at me to go. i will admit that there was no traffic coming from the left but from the right was a tractor trailer and i had no desire to walk into that. so i continue to wait and when the light changes i proceed to cross the street. as i am crossing the street the guy guns his engines and speeds around the corner like a maniac and as he is passing me he gives me it looks like he is giving me the finger. seriously! i am sorry me not walking into the path of a tractor trailer made him sit for an extra minute at a stoplight but i am not throwing my life away because he has no patience. or was i rude to him by not rushing into traffic so that he could save that minute? | | |
| so today has been an up and down roller coaster ride. some of you might know that i have the worst luck in finding apartments and i tend to give my dead beat landlords the benefit of the doubt but the place i am in now is just bad and came this close to being condemned today. my upstairs neighbor came to me a little bit ago and said "our building is being condemned and we have to be out of it tonight!" i do not know about you guys but that is not news that makes me go "Yay!" i did however find out that i got some good friends that got my back and was like if you need a place to crash our door is open to you know matter how long it takes. Thanks Christina Bowes, makes me feel good to know i gots friends like that. there were other friends letting me know that they wanted to do something but were to far away to really help, i am glad i have those friends also, like i said it is nice to know i have people looking out for me and worrying about me. but back to my apartment situation, so yeah i can stay there but my decision to get up out of there is final and i am so ready to go. just have to save up money to get myself out of there and find a better place, in a better neighborhood, with a better landlord. yeah i know good luck with that in today's world. some one recently told me that he would enjoy being a landlord just so he could "screw people over." me on the other hand, if i were a landlord i would not want people to have to go through some of the issues and problems i have had to deal with in apartments i have had. i have had some bad apartments with terrible landlords and that seems to be the norm with landlords these days. they just want their rent and do not care what the apartments look like. i am not even going to get into the whole situation when my current landlord took me to court after he told me that he would work with me and i had nothing to worry about. it used to be a landlord looked out for a tenant but these days there is no such code. i am not naive and think that it is all the landlords faults. i know there are some tenants that are terrible to the landlords and they have had to get harder on people because they want to get paid but we need to find a happy medium some where in between so us honest hardworking people that pay our rent and our bills do not get lumped in with the deadbeats. oh well if wishes were $100 bills i would be rich, lol! | | |
| So it's now january 2, 2012 and the world did not end, that's a good start | | |
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